On 10/30/2007 they broke my soul. It was very painful. I shed tears and hate. I'm still very upset. I can't believe what they did to me. It has being very hard on my family.
Life sucks I HATE MYSELF AND WANT TO DIE!
But, What can you do? My passion was driving. Now I sit at home and moan.
One day of great pain and many months of therapy. And Guess what! Every day is pain day... Pain is my enemy. It keeps me awake and keeps me from enjoying life.
It's never ending. I keep my self medicated. It is fucking sad!
I pray I have a quick recovery and get back to working and living a normal life.
CHURCH!! And I heard someone say, J Enjoy your stay in hell! That is how it feels . That is how it feels. This HOW I FEEL! I HATE THIS PAIN!
So much pain and I wish I had died. So much, too much and not enough .
I know this has change me for the better. I will become more compassionate. I will love you more. I'm sorry for all hard times I made go thru. PLEASE FORGIVE.
