To much to explain. I lost my house and dignity.. I lost my faith in other things.. I know soon or later I Will be fired.. I am dead weight and need to retire. I had a second surgery on March. Then I moved in July with my bother in law.. NOW I got kick out of there and moving in with my mother in law.. I hope My children stop suffering soon.. I am a poor bastard and want to die.. But, won't commit to it..

I know my kids need more than ever.. It is just a feeling of sadness in me.. I am so depressed and don't know what else to do.. Al because of the idiot that broke me in two... So, I have my third surgery and get better too. I hope everything works better with my mother in law...

I need to focus and try to embrace life to. I hate all of this and no Internet to...Soon , VERY SOON I KNOW EVERYTHING WILL CHANGE!